December 2009
76 posts
“Summer is painted on our skin and these secrets hidden in our childish lips...”
Open your eyes, like I opened mine; it’s only the real world—a life you will never know. Shifting your weight to throw off the pain well you can ignore it, but only for so long. You built up a world of magic because your real life is trigic. If it’s not real you can’t hold it in your hand; you can’t feel it with your heart—and I won’t believe it. Well if...
I know it's easy to see
I know it’s easy to see that you make me happier than anyone else but over these months I’ve learned a lot. For example, I’ve learned I can live without you. I’ve also learned that other people make me happy and that I can be happy without you. So if I give you another chance, which I haven’t decided yet, and you mess it up this time I’m not going to hesitate to...
My birthday is comming up fast and I don’t think I’ll be doing anything even though I am turning 16.
Sleep with one eye open
As I lay in bed and hold the phone to my head I never close my eyes. When we used to talk I would always keep my eyes closed but now I don’t feel safe. What can I think now? I trusted you with everything and you threw it all away and it took you 4 months to realize you made a mistake? What am I suposed to do? You left me alone and now you’re begging me to come back and I have no idea...
“Just look at me, look at me now—I’m a fake; I’m a fake....”
– The Used (it’s been years)
“Last night I was so sure it was the day I would stop talking to him forever and...”
“Slow down.”
“For Christmas my grandmother got me a gift certificate for 40$ to spend at my...”
Sometimes when I am alone, the world seems so still and quiet—just how I always want it to be—but then I don’t know what to do and I want the world to move again.
“I’ve forgoten most things of you like the way you would breathe, the sound...”
Dear whoever
I used to write these letters and I would write them to “whoever” and I’ve always thought it was pointless to do something intended for someone to read or see and then hide it away somewhere. I would put the letters on the front of my binder and purposely leave it places so maybe someone would read it. I go places because I tell myself one day ‘he’ will find...
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“I’m alone tonight. Home alone and no one to call. I think these are the...”
– (There’s a shadow, you can’t see my eyes)
I don’t think you have changed. I don’t think this at all. I don’t think you fully get it but my hopes are up that one day you will. I don’t want to be let down and I don’t want to be hurt. All I wanted for Christmas was to know that you aren’t like everyone else—you actually care about someone other than your self. I want to know you changed but I...
“You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed, dizzy in my head, just the...”
I know alot of people on here have a negative...
itslikeshebroughtthesunwithher:
But, I’ve been suffering with a cutting problem for almost 7 years. I also have bulimia and serious anxiety problems. The urge to cut hasn’t came back til now and I hate when I get that feeling. My wrists itch like crazy and I can’t stop it. And with my anxiety….My anxiety attacks come and they hit HARD. I shake with no control and I can’t breathe and it feels...
“Maybe it’s easier to be mad at the people that you trust because you know...”
– The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants
“If you don’t mean what you say then shut the fuck up”
“I usually laugh when people tell me they like me or pull over and try to talk to...”
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I have scars and sometimes I’m self conscious about them but they are me. I can’t hide who I am like other people can. That’s why I chose to put them where I did—I wanted to remember. I remember everything when I look at them. I try to pretend it was all a dream but they remind me that it wasn’t.
be persistent
When I get really nervous or scarred I run away or avoid whoever is making me feel that way. I can’t talk to people I like because I’m so scarred I’ll say something freakish like I always do. And when they finallyget the courage to talk to me I avoid them because I don’t want to say something stupid…
“I used to love to meet Ariel. We live in California and I grew up going to...”
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“Bleeding nonstop is not fun; I hate being female for this reason.”
“I feel so small all the time and when I’m with my dog she makes me realize...”
“I want to tell her she can trust me but she wont understand or listen. She can...”
“You will soon realize that I wasn’t there because I needed you. I was...”
Sometimes I wish I were an ignorent child
Sometimes I’m glad I’m not.